A Name on A List by Avery Lansman


An image I can’t get out of my head 

He lays outside his sisters door

Which she’ll never walk through again 

I’ll never be able to forget myself saying, 

Doesn't this happen often?

I am not a victim or a survivor, i am just a witness 

Everyone is a witness 

Firsthand or secondhand, it doesn’t matter 

Either way, we will make you see our pain 

We’ll shove our mourning in your face

Until you get behind us and march for change

We said never again, made it our motto 

Chanted, as if lives depended on it, because they did

It only took three months for it to happen again 

And again and again and again 

I guess we’re living the modern American dream

This is clearly what they wanted, right?

If they actually cared, it wouldn’t be like this

Pro-life should start with those who are actually alive

Peoples friends, classmates, teammates, siblings

You realize, he doesn’t even deserve to rot in jail

They said he wouldn’t last long either way, but here we are

He’ll never get half of what he deserves 

It’s a lesson in dignity and atonement 

It’s a fatal sentence for future generations

It’s waiting for the good that won’t come out of it 

It’s moving on and also somehow getting heavier 

It’s a cruel world, and part of me wishes he took me out right then

Let me be another name on a list, spare me, for fuck’s sake.


Avery Lansman is a 19-year-old writer from Florida, currently pursuing a Bachelor of Fine
Arts in Writing at the School of the Art Institute of Chicago. With a strong voice and a sharp
eye for detail, she crafts work that spans screenplays, short fiction, and poetry. Avery’s
writing explores emotional nuance, interpersonal dynamics, and the surreal moments
woven into everyday life. Whether she’s constructing vivid cinematic worlds or capturing
quiet, intimate truths on the page, her work reflects a deep curiosity and commitment to
storytelling across forms. She is part of a new generation of writers redefining what it
means to tell a story.

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